Today is my day off. This is the day that after I drop Olivia off at school, she won't bless our home for a week.
Mondays used to be such a hard day for me for that reason. Not that they have become any easier, for I always miss her this first night especially. One of the things I do on Mondays, my day off of work and parenting, is to clean and get some errands done.
And when I clean, I think. I think about all sorts of things.
I think of what makes these walls my home, and can't help sometimes of trying to parallel my home with the apartment in Milwaukee we called home. One of the most important to me is family. At one point, my brothers and I lived there with my mom. Then it was two sisters, my younger brother and mom. We were always welcome home, in between jobs, homes, after college, before careers started, and especially during holidays. A cornerstone of our family is our mom. She will still open her home to her kids with open arms and heart.
So here, I try to create my family, which seems abbreviated in week on/ week off. I have filled some of the void with my pets, but alas, no matter how much I like them, they aren't people. I have a wonderful man in my life who has been so good and patient.
Things may not be perfectly the way I like them in the "right now", but they are getting closer. A plan is in place. Goals are set. And with faith and a good sprinkling of hope, I am thinking things are going to be just fine.